So over the weekend I developed more pain which really sucks because my mood has continued to improve over the weekend.
The Crohn's in my bowel has decided that it wants to start acting up so now I have sore fingers and a sore stomach, how fun! #sarcasm. Normally when I get a flare up the pain is in my pelvis but this pain is further up beside my belly button and I also have a feeling that I might have stricture somewhere because I have had some changes in my ostomy output which would coincide with a stricture. On Saturday I also had really bad pain in my bones and muscles to the point that it even hurt to yawn, thankfully though the pain improved through the day.
On Sunday my parents were having a bit of a clear out and in the things they were clearing out was my old riding hat.
Finding my riding hat has brought back a lot of good memories, it reminds me of a happier time before all these stupid medical problems and complications happened. I have to admit though finding this hat made me kind of sad as well because I really do miss it. I have contemplated booking myself some riding lessons but due to the amount of pain that I suffer in pelvis, the issues that I have had with the wound at my tail end and the problems with my legs I have never booked one. The thing is I know for certain that horse riding would help with the depression because it's something I enjoy, being out in the fresh air would be good for me and as far as I am concerned anything that involves one of my favourite animals will lift my mood considerable.
Previous post - Friday 20th February
Next post - Wednesday 23rd February
You can follow me on:
So it's a New Year and do I feel any different to last year, well the answer would be no.
I have never done the whole New Year's resolutions thing until this year but 2014 was such a shit year and I really do not want to repeat it this year. So far I have a few resolutions for this year and unlike everyone else none of them involve starting a new diet or losing weight. I should actually make one of my resolutions to eat more pureed food seeing as I lost 10kg because of the Crohn's and dysphagia last year but making pureed food can be time consuming.
The two main resolutions that I would really like to stick this year and they are.....
Number 1)
I am really bad at focusing on the future and because of that I would say my life has really kind of stalled, I need to get my fire back.
Number 2)
A lot of time the I hide who I am really am because it doesn't conform to what the world wants or people disapprove of the things I like, one example of this is I like to my clothing to have an edginess e.g wearing a really girly dress with a pair of Doc Martens. Another example is, I love tattoos but some people think that they make you look common or rough but to me they are art.
I do have a couple more resolutions such as be more organised, do things that I have been meaning to do for ages, bake more and start to teach myself special effects makeup and face and body painting.
Previous posts - Monday 29th December
Next post - Thursday 6th January
You can follow me on:
I have been feeling kind of low over the past few days, I suppose you can call it the post Christmas blues. I feel like I have nothing fun to look forward to anymore as all I have coming up is hospital things and I hate anything hospital related. I know that New Year is this week but I honestly do not find New Year that interesting or fun, maybe it has something to do with having no friends to go out with.
Seeing as I was so down in the dumps I decided to take advantage of the Schuh sale despite people telling me that I didn't need anymore shoes. I bought 2 pairs of Rocket Dog boots and got 36% off and as far as I am concerned they were worth purchasing because a) they are sensible shoes and b) Rocket Dog shoes do not cause blisters on my feet like other brands of shoes.
I was also going to make some clothing purchases from a website but the discount code that they had wouldn't work, which sucks.
Previous posts - Thursday 25th December
Next post - Thursday 1st December
You can follow me on:
Today I had my annual boxing day stomach problems. This year I didn't think it would be that bad because I didn't have a full Christmas lunch but boy was I wrong about that, it has to be one of the worst Boxing day's I have ever had. I am not a 100% sure what has caused it, I can only think of one possible thing that it could be and that is having soup, a glass of wine and tablets all in such a short period of time.** Soup and wine have always made my ostomy output higher then normal plus your are not suppose to take dihydrocodeine and antidepressants with alcohol so that probably is the reason why the guts are playing up today.
DISCLAIMER - **I DO NOT recommend that take you medication with alcohol, especially if it says avoid alcohol on the medication box or on the leaflet that comes in the box **
Previous posts - Thursday 25th December
Next post - Monday 29th Decmeber
You can follow me on:
