Thursday 25th December 2014

So today has been a great Christmas day. :) :) :) 

I actually thought that Christmas Day was going to be pretty rubbish this year because I wasn't going to be able to eat. When it comes to Christmas I am a very traditional person, Christmas is all about spending time with family and one of the main things about the day is the Christmas dinner. The first year that I ever couldn't sit down and eat dinner with the family was back in 2011 and I remember that day very well because it is the one and only Christmas that I have ever felt depressed. It was extremely hard for me to sit and watch other people eat food so I had to remove myself from the table and go and sit in the living room but sitting in the living room listening to everyone else in the dining room left me feeling alone and very upset. Thankfully this year though I am still able to take liquids so what I did was puree the broth in the blender and then put it through the sieve to remove any bits that was left. It worked a treat so I was able to sit at the table everybody and eat a whole bowel of soup and I may have even had a cheeky glass of wine as well.

I have been blethering way to much about food so lets get on to other things now. 

I loved every single one of my gifts that I received this year. One of the things I that I love about my family is how much they understand the things I like. Okay I do write a Christmas list every year but I always get things that I don't have on my list and they always become firm favourites and I think to myself why didn't I put that on my list. 

The little furball also seems to be enjoying her Christmas present because she has been using quite a bit today. 

I am very sad that Christmas is over for another year, I really do wish that it could last longer because no matter how bad my health is I always feel happy at Christmas. 


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Wednesday 24th December 2014

This morning when I woke up I was feeling really sick so the baking got a bit delayed but I did manage to make the little mince pie cakes in the afternoon with the help from my mum. 

It was the first time using my Kitchen Aid mixer and all I can say is, it is worth every single penny. I am really pleased that I have finally found something that makes it possible for me to bake again, f**ck you chronic illnesses Leona will always find a way to win the battle. There was one thing I didn't get to make today and that was the Ginger Christmas cake because stupid me forgot to soak the dried fruit in the ginger wine on Tuesday. 

I must say that, looking after my sister with special needs, making the cakes and wrapping presents did take it out of me and by the end of the day I was feeling really tired and in pain but I felt really good about myself because I had a very productive day, I can't actually remember the last time I had a day like. There is just something about Christmas that makes all my troubles like the depression go away.


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Merry Christmas Everyone!

This is a very quick post because I wanted to wish all of you a very Merry Christmas!! and I really hope you have all had a wonderful pain free day. 

I would also like to take this opportunity to say thank you all for taking the time to read my blog this year. It really means a lot to me and I really hope that my blog makes you feel less alone in your against these chronic illness and that it also shows you that you can still have a life even though you have an illness. 

Well that's it for this post, enjoy the rest of your day and remember to keep strong and keep fighting. xx

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Monday 22nd December 2014

Let the busy week commence because this week is Christmas week!!! I absolutely love Christmas but jeez those last few days before the day are always the busiest for me. There is so much things that need to be done, presents need to wrapped and the chief baker aka me needs to do her baking. I was originally going to do my baking on Sunday but I changed my mind because there was no way that those little mince pie cakes would last until Christmas day so I have decided to make them on Christmas Eve which is probably a really stupid idea because guaranteed I will have forgotten to buy at least one of the ingredients but hey I like to live life dangerously. 

Another good thing about this Christmas is I hardly have to wrap any presents due to everyone buying there own presents this year. I love opening presents but I hate wrapping them because a) my wrapping skills are awful and b) my wee little fingers do not like having to do all that work (I get joint pain). All I have to wrap this year is a present for my mum, my sister and grandma, I normally do wrap up the present that I get for the cat (and yes I am a crazy cat lazy) but her present came in a cardboard box and she loves cardboard boxes so I will just leave in there and she can trail it out of the box herself. 


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Thursday 18th December 2014

So since last Friday night I have been having the most horrendous chest pain again, it has got to one of the most horrible things about having oesophageal Crohn's (the other horrible thing is the stricture's). The type of pain that I always get is a crushing pain and it always goes from my diaphragm up to my collarbone but the one funny thing about it is that it doesn't make me short of breath. Maybe it's a good thing that it doesn't make me short of breath because that means that it is definitely not heart or lung related. 

At the end of last week, I delivered the Christmas food donation to my local cats protection and I was was very sad to learn that they are completely full. It really does make me very sad to hear that all these cats have no permanent home, without the cat's protection I would never have found the prefect cat for me. I would have another couple of cats in a heartbeat but I live in the family home and even though my parents love Snowball to bits they to do not want any more pets.

So Christmas came early for me this week and I got a Kitchen Aid mixer in the colour that I wanted!!! Crystal Blue.

I have been wanting this mixer for a very, very, very long time now and getting my hands on this baby means I can finally start baking again. I haven't been able to bake for such a long time now because all I had was a 20 year old hand held mixer and for a good while now I haven't had the physical strength to use it (if I did want to bake I had to rely on somebody to help me). I have already decided on two recipes that I am going to make, I plan to make mince pie cakes this weekend and then a Gingerbread Christmas cake for Christmas day. Even though I will not be able to eat the cakes myself I still love to bake, which I know sounds really weird but seeing family and friends enjoy my baking makes me very happy. 


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Thursday 11th December 2014

So the physical health problems are worse but my mental health issues are getting better which for me is the main thing because if my mental health is good it makes fighting the Crohn's and Dysphagia so much easier because I have lots of fighting spirit. About 4 weeks ago I decided to start reducing the dose of my anti-depressants but it's only now that I have started to notice the difference. I am starting to feel much more positive about life which is really good because I was honestly spending most of the time thinking why am I bothering with life, what is the point of life, now if the whole anxiety/agoraphobia issue thing could improve too then I would be extremely happy.

This week has so far been pretty rough with the Crohn's, on Monday I had an even higher stoma output then normal and I was feeling really sick, so sick to the point that I thought about draining off my stomach contents through my PEG tube because having these stricture's obviously means that I cannot be sick in the normal way. In the end I decided not to do it because I thought I am badly dehydrated already and I wasn't gagging or retching so my oesophagus wasn't in any danger of being injured. Thankfully things have slowly improved since Monday but the grumpy guts still like to throw a paddy every now and then. 

On Sunday I placed a rather large ordered from Pets at Home and it arrived today which I think was pretty quick for this time of year.

They were doing some great deals so I decided to take full advantage of them. I should probably say that all this food is not for my little furball, it is for my Local Cats Protection but Snowball did think it was all for her, lol. 

Every Christmas I like to make a food donation to my local cats protection as a thank you to them because without them I would never have got such a wonderful, loving cat. Without Snowball I would be very lost, she keeps me company when I am feeling ill and she makes me laugh when I feel depressed. 



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Saturday 6th December 2014

So this week has been a pretty crappy week and I think it may be time to cave in and pay a visit to the old GI ward. I really, really, really don't want to go because 

(a) I hate hospital's 

(b) The hospital that I go to is having a lot of bad press lately so I ain't exactly full of confidence  

(c) Christmas is just round the corner  

(d) They will probably put me on the evil meds that are steroids  

(e) I am scared that they will give me a PICC line and put me on TPN because I have lost 10kg in weight. 

Why is making these types of decisions are so hard? Why does the thought of going in hospital make me have panic attacks? Why can't life be easy.

So also this week my laptop power cord broke which is just great and it kind of ruined my plans for this week. This week is IBD Awareness Week and I planned to post lots of facts as well as other things about IBD on all my social media sites but I have really been struggling to do it because I am having to use my parents laptop which possibly has to be the worst laptop in the world. I use to complain about my laptop all the time but after using their one I don't think I will ever complain about my again, despite the struggle though I have managed to post at least one IBD fact a day on my twitter, facebook, tumblr, and google+. On Wednesday I did order a power cord from a seller on amazon but it hasn't arrived yet, I am a bit concerned about actually using it but the problem is that I have is Sony do not make computer's anymore so the only place that I could find power cords was amazon or ebay. I was going to buy the cheapest Apple MacBook Pro because I have been wanting one for ages plus they offer financing but the parents where like you should just buy a power cord because you will save yourself so much money which is true but I honestly do think I am going to buy a MacBook Pro at some point because it is much more suitable for the things that I do. 


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